My life - Part 13

After realising that I had a brain, there was no stopping me! From a nobody I became a somebody, a force to be reckoned with! 

However, when I was stupid and useless, I had become friends with my fellow outcasts, and I liked the carefree life that they led, not giving a damn about teachers and exams and the future, but always living in the moment, looking for our next adventure. I was drawn to that lifestyle. And yet, I was also drawn to this new lifestyle among the 'elite' where everyone was intellectual and close to the teachers and became prefects and class monitors and what nots. So I led a double life. I maintained my grades, but I also hung out with the 'naughty' girls and continued with my tricks. Life, after all, is a balance, right?

When I think about it now, I was just looking for a sense of belonging, I wanted to be liked and to be loved by all. It was difficult because the nerds didn't like the naughty girls and vice versa. Many of them couldn't understand why I would hang out with the other group. I had to defend my friends and myself all the time, but for the most part, I managed to stay in both groups all the way through secondary school.