My life - Part 35

This was meant to be as much a soul searching journey as it is a journey of exploring new lands. But it has become lopsided, I spend more time writing about the places that I have seen and the things that I have done, rather than try and understand myself. And now I'm at the tail end of my journey and I'm not even half way through my life. I feel a bit stressed. This is very typical of me, to procrastinate and leave things till the last bloody minute. However, I must say that I do work well under pressure, and somehow things always turn out well in the end. Most things, anyway. My life has not turned out well, 'well' meaning the way I wanted it to be.

Anyway, this is me procrastinating some more. My travels have inspired me to pursue a few things when I return to Malaysia:

1. Buy a binoculars and watch the stars 

2. Re-learn how to ride a bike

3. Learn how to play the violin

4. Learn how to dance (Zumba classes for starters maybe??)

5. Learn Spanish - I should have done it before I came to South America but better late than never.

6. Learn about the history of the older buildings in Kuala Lumpur.

At least there are things to look forward to upon my return. Most importantly, I have to figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life, in terms of a job or a career. The thing is, it doesn't have to be for the rest of my life. Right now what I am thinking is that I work somewhere, anywhere, for the next 3 to 5 years, save money and go on a solo adventure trip again - maybe to Bulgaria, Azerbaijan, Jordan, Iran - why not? Not that there is anything to hold me down in Malaysia anyway.

As matters stand now, I still haven't figured out who I am, where I'm going, and what I'm going to do with my life. And for the first time, I am actually not worried about it. It is what it is. Of course, I say that now because I am far away from the pressures of my society. The trick is to stay this way even when faced with external pressures. I am not sure whether I have achieved this kind of internal strength. We will just have to wait and see.