Today was a day of aunts.
I have withdrawn myself from the world, and I’m happier this way. There’s a certain amount of stress associated with social media and reading the news, so I did what I should have done from the start, which is to ignore all these white noise in the background.
So here I am minding my own business, when I get 2 phone calls in the same day, from 2 different aunts of mine; one here in the city and one in my hometown. I wouldn’t consider myself particularly close to my aunts, so to receive a call from both of them in the same day is rather peculiar.
From my conversations with the both of them, it was clear to me that they had been discussing ‘my situation’ - that I am all alone here and therefore I must need help.
I assured both my aunts that I was completely ok staying on my own; it is my inability to go outdoors that is my main cause of anxiety and stress - this problem will not be solved no matter where I stayed, be it in a house full of people or in a house on my own.
I appreciated their concern for me. I still do. But of course I couldn’t help thinking.
This only goes to show, that even when you’re all alone away from the world and minding your own business, there will be people talking about you nevertheless. It may be with good intentions, but it’s still talking about you.
And this, in a nutshell, is my problem with human beings in general. No matter what you do, even if you do absolutely nothing and stay away from all forms of civilisation, people will still inevitably talk about you in your absence. I’m not sure I like it 🤔.
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