Blinkers and a muzzle

I have been told time and again to follow the rules and procedures everywhere I go: in school, in university, at work, at government departments, at service providers. A lot of these rules and procedures do not make a lot of sense to me, but whenever I ask questions, the answer is inevitably “I don’t know”, or “I’m just a servant here following orders”, or “it has always been like this”, or the best one “if you want [what I signed up for] then you have to follow the rules”.

It drives me mad. If something doesn’t make sense to me, it has to be explained to me why it is being done that way. But nobody seems to be interested in the why. They prefer to just blindly follow instructions, right or wrong, so as not to rock the boat.

And the sad part is, I am always the villain because I dare to question. Who do I think I am? Everyone is following these procedures so why can’t I? The thing is, I always end up following the rules anyway because I have to look at the big picture which is to get whatever it is that I signed up for. So I keep telling myself that since I’m going to end up following these nonsensical rules anyway, why don’t I just keep quiet and do it instead of asking questions?

It’s like that saying:

“Ours not to question why,

Ours but to do or die.”

From the looks of it, I need blinkers and a muzzle to fit into society 🙄. I have no idea how I even made it this far!