Spanner in the works

Most doctors I know (including my brother) will say that depression, whilst caused by various factors, results in chemical imbalance in the brain so that it can be cured by medication.

Personally I think depression is a state of mind - if you do not deal with the root cause of what is making you sad, even if you are not sure of what it is that is making you sad, no amount of medication will be able to help you.

I'm no expert of course, but having been on the fringes of mortality at my own hands and coming out of it in one piece, I think one has to start with oneself. Learning to love and appreciate yourself above all others is the best medicine you can give yourself.

So this year, my New Year's resolution is to love myself. I want to stay focused on my long term plans, I want to spend more time with my girls and with my family, and above all, I want to spend more time with myself. This year I want to love only myself. I want to give myself more time for my heart to recover, for my wounds to heal, for my mind to be rid of any negative thoughts about myself. There are still some lingering remnants and I want to be completely free of them by the end of the year.

But of course, life always has other plans. I think I'm in love. With someone other than myself. Oh, dear.