This is the end as I know it. I've finally fallen into an abyss so deep no one can help me out this time around. I don't think even I can get out of this one this time. Or maybe I don't want to. I've become so accustomed to deep dark desolate places that I feel quite at home here actually.
I've tried. I really have. I've tried to live like a normal person in the real world. I tried to have friends, to socialize, to have hobbies, to do normal things. None of these give me any satisfaction anymore, none of these make me happy anymore.
Over the years I've dug an abyss where I can retreat to whenever the world is cruel to me, or whenever I feel I am not good enough for the world, which is almost everyday. I didn't realize every time I hid in my own little abyss, it kept getting deeper and deeper.
And now it's so deep that no one can ever find me. No one ever will. I will make sure of that. I will hide here in the comfort and familiarity of my own deep dark secret world and watch patiently as the world goes by, until the end.
I've tried. I really have. I've tried to live like a normal person in the real world. I tried to have friends, to socialize, to have hobbies, to do normal things. None of these give me any satisfaction anymore, none of these make me happy anymore.
Over the years I've dug an abyss where I can retreat to whenever the world is cruel to me, or whenever I feel I am not good enough for the world, which is almost everyday. I didn't realize every time I hid in my own little abyss, it kept getting deeper and deeper.
And now it's so deep that no one can ever find me. No one ever will. I will make sure of that. I will hide here in the comfort and familiarity of my own deep dark secret world and watch patiently as the world goes by, until the end.
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