One chance left

One of my oldest friend, after reading my blog, told me that I dwell too much on the past. This is probably true. It explains my fondness for history in general. I like looking back at things, reminiscing, wondering what if?

I believe in learning from your mistakes and the mistakes of others. And in order to learn from mistakes one has to every so often look into the past. Today I thought of the past and wondered what it would have been like if I defied my parents in particular and society in general and joined a rock band? Where would I be now?

I look at the bands that I have been following since I was a kid and see them still doing the thing they enjoy doing, with the same passion and zeal as they had 20 years ago, and I think maybe I should have fought just a little harder, maybe I should have been a little more courageous, maybe I should have just run away and lived my own life. "If I fail, if I succeed, at least I did as I believe".

But it's too late now. It is what it is. I have one more thing left spilling over from my childhood, one more ambition that is still not too late for me to achieve. And this time, I will be strong and brave enough to achieve this ambition before I die. This time, nothing and no one shall stand in my way.