Questions

Lately I have been asking myself the same question again and again, and I cannot find an answer. That question is, why is what I have now not enough?

Sure, we must, or should, aspire to greater things in life, or have ambitions or dreams or wishes to keep us going. But compared to a lot of people, I have accomplished a lot of things that many people will never have. In fact, I often feel that I have surpassed even my own expectations.

So then, why is all of this not enough? Why can’t I be happy with what I have now, and with what I have achieved? A recurring answer at the back of my mind says because I know I am capable of so much more. Perhaps. But do I really need to travel half way around to world to prove to myself that I am capable of so much more?

And what happens if I am still restless after I come back? Still unfulfilled, still searching for that one thing, when I myself know not what that one thing is? Then what?