I have failed

I have always been my own worst enemy. I am my biggest critic. I can suffer fools but I cannot tolerate failure at my own hands.

Nothing ever came easy for me. I had to fight to be heard, fight for attention, fight for equality, fight for education, fight for good grades, fight for everything that I believed in. I could not afford to lose because I had no safety net. I had no one to catch me if I fell, no one to pick me up if I was down, no one to bandage my wounds. No safety net. So the stakes were high. I had to win. I simply could not lose. If I did, I licked my own wounds. I was my own safety net.

I have won many battles but the war eludes me. And now I have failed. I have lost the war. What do you do when you have let yourself down?