In the end, it is always up to
me. I have to find my own adventures. I have to plan my own life. I have to
make things happen. Of course, I could just sit and do nothing and wait for
things to happen. Except that they never will. Nothing ever happens. Nothing
exciting, that is. And I am not one to wait for things to happen. I’d just die
of boredom. Or worse, do something out of sheer boredom that I may come to
regret later.
I don’t know why it has to be
like this. Some people’s lives are just full of excitement and adventure. When
I look back on this past year, I actually did quite a lot. Changed jobs, went
to Moscow, Jogjakarta, Jakarta, Lembah Bujang, Langkawi, Kota Kinabalu, Laos,
ran 21 km for the first time, read about 70 books, submitted my application for
PhD etc. But it’s not enough. I don’t know why.
I feel like I’m capable of so
much more but I’m just sitting around waiting for things to happen. For once I
would like something exciting to happen without me looking for it or planning
for it.
Right. Back to my boring life.
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