Bottom line is, there will always be double standards, hypocrisy, bias, and corruption wherever I go. I can't stand it. If I am paying to buy A and you are paying to buy A at the same price, I expect A to be of the same exact quality. I shouldn't be given a free gift for buying A or you shouldn't be given a discount for buying A. Of course this is just an example, I'm not completely oblivious to the commercial realities of bargaining, sales etc but you get the idea. There should always be equal treatment so that no one feels that they are being short changed in life.
So I get properly pissed off when all else being equal, I am expected to follow all the rules but others are allowed to bend or even break it. As a result of which, I was seriously contemplating letting air out of someone's tyres yesterday. My friend called it "juvenile" to which I promptly replied " growing old is mandatory, growing up is optional". Although on hind sight, I should've asked him to explain what exactly he meant by that word, he may have been insinuating that my chosen punishment was too light (juvenile) and I should probably set fire to the car instead (adult). (Note to self - to seek clarification).
I had a devil-on-one-shoulder-angel-
Angel : Who died and appointed you judge, jury and executioner?
Devil : Someone has to teach them a lesson. Why can't it be me?
Angel : 'Someone' is already on it. It's called Karma. If you do Karma's job for it, Karma will come after you.
Devil : I'm willing to take my chances. Anyway, I don't see why Karma has to come after me, since I'm helping it to do it's job, which is to teach people a lesson so that they don't inconvenience others. In a way, I'm contributing to making the world a better place.
Angel : Judge not lest ye be judged yourself. He who casts the first stone...
Devil : Yeah yeah yeah. So others can break all the rules but I must continue to follow the rules like a sheep bereft of free will?
And on and on. In case you're wondering, I often have conversations like this with myself, even on the most mundane things like should I go to the gym? That conversation would be between Lazy and Active. Schizo? Bi-polar? Who knows??
Anyway, in the end I didn't do it. I'm not sure whether I really didn't want to do it anymore, or whether I didn't have time as I was rushing to the gym or whether the car in question had left before me. According to Buddhist principles, because I had bad intentions I have already collected bad Karma. In which case I might as well carry out the deed right??
Ok I'll stop having conversations with myself now. Bottom line is, there will always be people or things - mostly people - who will piss me off. The question is, what am I going to do about it? Walk away and let Karma do its job, or teach them a lesson myself?
So I get properly pissed off when all else being equal, I am expected to follow all the rules but others are allowed to bend or even break it. As a result of which, I was seriously contemplating letting air out of someone's tyres yesterday. My friend called it "juvenile" to which I promptly replied " growing old is mandatory, growing up is optional". Although on hind sight, I should've asked him to explain what exactly he meant by that word, he may have been insinuating that my chosen punishment was too light (juvenile) and I should probably set fire to the car instead (adult). (Note to self - to seek clarification).
I had a devil-on-one-shoulder-angel-
Angel : Who died and appointed you judge, jury and executioner?
Devil : Someone has to teach them a lesson. Why can't it be me?
Angel : 'Someone' is already on it. It's called Karma. If you do Karma's job for it, Karma will come after you.
Devil : I'm willing to take my chances. Anyway, I don't see why Karma has to come after me, since I'm helping it to do it's job, which is to teach people a lesson so that they don't inconvenience others. In a way, I'm contributing to making the world a better place.
Angel : Judge not lest ye be judged yourself. He who casts the first stone...
Devil : Yeah yeah yeah. So others can break all the rules but I must continue to follow the rules like a sheep bereft of free will?
And on and on. In case you're wondering, I often have conversations like this with myself, even on the most mundane things like should I go to the gym? That conversation would be between Lazy and Active. Schizo? Bi-polar? Who knows??
Anyway, in the end I didn't do it. I'm not sure whether I really didn't want to do it anymore, or whether I didn't have time as I was rushing to the gym or whether the car in question had left before me. According to Buddhist principles, because I had bad intentions I have already collected bad Karma. In which case I might as well carry out the deed right??
Ok I'll stop having conversations with myself now. Bottom line is, there will always be people or things - mostly people - who will piss me off. The question is, what am I going to do about it? Walk away and let Karma do its job, or teach them a lesson myself?
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