New Year resolutions

Not that I believe in New Year resolutions, but there are a few things that I wish to achieve next year and I guess now is as good a time as any to resolve to carry out what I hope to achieve. Besides, putting something down in writing always seemed to me that things were then serious, not just some random thought in my head but something firmly cast in stone (cyberspace) and then I will actually have to take it seriously and evaluate my success or failure at the end of next year.

Anyway, my resolutions in no particular order:

1.   Lose 5 kgs - by eating responsibly, more exercise, reduce bad habits

2.   Visit 3 countries

3.   Read 100 books

4.   Run a half marathon

5.   Less tv, less procrastination, more activities

Happy New Year!

He loves me, he loves me not

Have you ever loved someone so much that you were willing to do just about anything to see them happy? Like give up everything for them, or die for them, or the worst of all, to let them go.

I only ever loved 2 people like that. And both relationships did not work out, through no fault of my own. So now I am thinking, could it be that they did not reciprocate the level of devotion, sacrifice and love that I was willing to show to them?

Some of my friends are of the view that if they will not sacrifice their happiness for mine, it means that they just did not love me enough. Personally, I can agree with that because I know I am capable of giving (or giving up) everything for someone else's happiness, even if it means compromising my own happiness. But a close friend of mine keeps reminding me that the world is not black and white, it's 50 shades of grey (pun intended) and just because I think in a certain way does not mean that other people think the same way I do.

Assuming for one minute that my friend is right - that they just did not love me enough - what this means is that I was never good enough for anyone to love me to the extent that he will do anything to see me happy. And that is just sad.