I am in a deep, dark place. Usually I come out of it. But this time I think I am trapped.
Nobody knows. Nobody understands. Everyone thinks I am doing ok. Sometimes even I think I am doing ok. And then it just hits me. The feeling is unbearable. Like I have no other choice. I have to end it now. I have to end the pain, the misery, the agony now before it gets worse.
It is getting harder and harder to resist the temptation. Nothing seems to work. Reading, watching movies, meditating, running, badminton, nothing works. I feel useless. Hopeless.
I am just wasting the limited amount of oxygen in the atmosphere. Nobody will mourn for me. Nobody will miss me. My life has no purpose. I will be doing the world a favour by getting out of it.
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