Still sad

It has been approximately 7 months, but I am still reeling from the effects of coming out of a long term relationship.

Most of the time I am ok. I can function like a normal human being. But then there are times when it just hits you. The memories. The good times. The shared life. The pain. The misery. The loneliness. The heartache. The uncertainty. The panic. But most of all, the grief.

And then there is no one to talk to. My parents are of the view that I made the right decision and I should move on. And that is that! Somehow I am supposed to miraculously forget the past, just like that.

Some of my friends are of the view that since I have moved on (because I am dating again), therefore I am ok. Some of my other friends are more engrossed with their own lives to listen to yet another sad story.

Of course I can’t talk to my present boyfriend for obvious reasons.

Ironically, the only person who I think will understand my predicament is my ex-boyfriend. He must be going through the same grief as me. He will know what it’s like. He will be emphatic. He will understand.

But I cannot talk to him either. For obvious reasons. Although he is probably the only one in this world who will know what I am going through.

And so I will continue to grieve alone. For as long as it takes.